Some random thoughts and life updates

This week Hayleigh has been at a Princess Dance Camp in the mornings. This is a foreign world to me. I never went to dance. I never even had more than one dress up outfit. I never really liked the color pink. I wasn’t a tom-boy; I logged in my fair share of hours playing with Barbies and house. I just never was taken much with dance and my parents never encouraged it. I haven’t encouraged it with Hayleigh either. My oh-so-generous sister bought her the week at camp and let me tell you-Sister Friend is eating it up! After the first day she came home with ballet clothes that my sister had gotten her (did I mention my sister spoils her?) because Hayleigh said she wanted to look like the other girls. Oh my heart.

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With Sissy being at camp this means that Braxton and I have had lots of un-precedented one on one time together. We are both eating it up, although he we have spent some of the time napping. I am just brimming over with love and affection for this little man. He pulls at my heart strings in a way that only he could. I am so grateful for how God uses time to change things and work things out. It is sometimes hard for my heart to remember a time when I was not head over heals in love with this sweet, silly boy who gets cuter everyday. He is always on the go-playing, running aimlessly waving his arms, colliding into things. Often, seemingly randomly in the midst of his activities he bursts into a run and a toothy grin and plunges straight into my arms for a hug and a kiss. He is also developing so much more of a silly sense of humor and little quirks. Everything Hayleigh does is golden and hilarious and he either mimics her (including putting on her dress up clothes and twirling…sorry Peter) or doubles over laughing at whatever she says to him.
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I still don’t take any hug from him for-granted and every smile he gives me penetrates to my heart. I count each of these moments a victory and treasure our story of bonding and growth. I am so thankful to God for seeing us through this journey. 
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Yesterday I was 20 weeks pregnant- half way there. Sheesh! It is going so much faster this time around! I am finally feeling less nauseous and light headed and have a bit more energy! I am still huge, in fact I have already started staining the bellies of my shirts when I am eating. I feel little girly moving all the time now. She has really been upping the number of those wonderful kicks to the bladder that send me running to the bathroom. I have ordered some fabric for nursery aka corner of our room. The first one came today and I literally jumped up and down squealing (and then ran to the bathroom). It is from Michael Miller’s Secret Garden Collection, of which I have ordered most of the line and am having anxiety about cutting into.


The plans in my head are going to make that corner as nice as any little corner can be. We have picked out a name. Miracle of miracles we agreed! We are keeping it a secret from most people though. We have heard (and still hear) a lot of insensitive comments about Braxton’s name so we are keeping this one under-wraps until she makes me debut.

We are going raspberry picking this Saturday and I cannot wait! Raspberries are my favorite but I hate to spend my life savings on just a few of them at the grocery store. I can’t wait to stock up! I am already planning recipes to make with the ones I don’t inhale by the handful!

It has been almost unbearably hot here this summer. A low temperature is mid 80s. Let me tell you something about myself: I am a sweaty person. I don’t tolerate the heat well, especially when pregnant. This summer has been a lesson in not complaining because I don’t like when people grumble about the weather. We have not been outside as much as I would like because on days when it is mid 90s I just can’t do without the air conditioner for extended periods of time. We are making the best of it though. Thank goodness my parents have a pool!

I still haven’t gotten hardly anything on my crafts/diy/being creative to-do list done recently. I told Peter that next Sunday he is on duty with the kids so I can have the whole afternoon and evening to get things done! I have had plans for our bedroom for about 6 months and they need to come to fruition. I also have some projects up my sleeve for Hayleigh’s room before I begin working on the nursery area. I am getting anxious-can’t wait! I have gotta get these things done before I am as big as a house (although Hayleigh told me a few weeks ago I was as big as our minivan).

Well, I guess that is all my blabbing for now!

It’s a girl!

We had our ultrasound on Monday July 1st. I always have nerves and a pit in my stomach going into an ultrasound. I know that there is so much that can go wrong with a pregnancy and never want to take a healthy baby for granted. We were very happy to see a healthy baby! This was the most thorough ultrasound I have ever had actually. (I am so glad I switched practices!) Baby greeted us by immediately putting her thumb in her mouth. I felt tears well up in my eyes. This sounds so dumb, but I actually thought to myself “awww it’s a baby!”. Obviously. I don’t know why but at that moment it all clicked for me. I have been pretty distracted with taking care of Hayleigh and Braxton that I haven’t had much time to think about this pregnancy. I obviously knew in my head this was going to be another member of our family, but this time it clicked for me emotionally. I fell in love. I felt a rush of excitement that I have not felt yet this pregnancy. I knew with my heart and not just my head how this little person was going to transform our home, our family and be just as loved as my other two babies. I thought to myself “Okay, I am ready to have another baby. I am finally good with this.”
It took about a half hour to find the gender. It was the same way with Hayleigh. The tech told me she thought I would probably have to come back but told me to go try to empty my bladder thinking maybe that would enable the baby to change position. I prayed a silent prayer that we would find out the gender…mostly for Hayleigh’s sake who just before we left said to me” Now you will KNOW I am having a sister! Have fun seeing my sister!”. I couldn’t imagine going home with no news for her. The tech gave it one last try and our sweet baby decided against modesty! I saw the three little lines before the tech said anything. Then she zoomed in a little and said “Well, kids know best! You are having another girl!” We were so excited, again mostly for Hayleigh; I would have been happy with either gender.
I had promised Hayleigh she would be the first one to know. So when we came home we sat her on the couch and told her, before anyone else. Here we are telling her and her reaction.
Telling Hayleigh the news!
Then Hayleigh ran/marched/pranced around the house for about 45 minutes yelling, giggling and singing songs about sisters. I was adorable and sweet.
This girly will have her “nursery” set up in the corner of our room. This is not ideal, but it’s the best alternative for what we have now. I am struggling with not being able to decorate an entire nursery but I already have some fun plans for her corner. I am pretty excited!

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