My New Years Resolution is to be purposeful. I realized I am doing a mediocre job of that lately. Maybe writing about different ways I am putting this into practice will hold me accountable.
Lately we have been working on the memory verse “Do everything without complaining or arguing” (Philippians 2:14). It is out of order of our memory verses but I feel that lately it is super fitting. This just in, three year olds like to whine! Who knew?! You would think the way I have responded to Hayleigh’s whining and arguing that this idea was a revelation to me. I find myself “reminding” her of this verse in a not so patient way. I find myself thinking “what could be so bad in her life!?” And that applies to Braxton to, who it seems thinks the worst possible tragedies in his life include having his diaper changed and when a gate keeps him out of the kitchen and all the cabinets have to offer. I even find myself, get this, whining and complaining to Peter at end of the day about all the whining. Seriously?!
It seems like maybe I need this memory verse as much (or more) than my three year old. Sometimes I wonder what is going through God’s mind as He looks at me complain and whine. I complain about all that I don’t have instead of looking at what I do have. And then, to top it, I complain about how all I do have is stressing me out, taking up too much of my time etc. This just in, twenty-somethings like to whine!
I am not trying to say that there is something wrong with expressing your feelings. That is cathartic. Clearly as a Psychology and Christian Counseling major, I am all about expressing our thoughts and emotions to others. It is a big part of helping us sort things out and grow. I love to have a conversation with someone where either one or both of us is expressing real, honest, raw emotions-however ugly, for the purpose of healing. I guess for me the difference is that when I whine I am not looking for a real solution; I am not looking for honest, loving, constructive support from a loved one. I am just looking for an opportunity to make myself feel better without making any changes. I am looking for someone to whine alongside me, or at least agree with me, certainly not challenge me.
I find it so refreshing, although convicting, when what I am trying to teach my daughter from the Word of God also applies to me. Isn’t it great that the Bible never gets old? The same passage that I have heard a thousand times I can see in a new light or apply to a new part of my life. I am going to work on committing this passage to memory, and hopefully to practice in my life.
“Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed—not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence—continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose.
Do everything without grumbling or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, “children of God without fault in a warped and crooked generation.” Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky as you hold firmly to the word of life. And then I will be able to boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor in vain. But even if I am being poured out like a drink offering on the sacrifice and service coming from your faith, I am glad and rejoice with all of you. So you too should be glad and rejoice with me.” Philippians 2:12-18